Salutations,

First off, I've been listening to Last.Fm on my XBox 360 and it gives me some selections based upon a certain artists genre or based upon tags or other things. Since I listen to Kotoko (got introduced to her from BlazBlue's opening some "Ao Iconoclast"), as well as beginning to listen to Anthem (Japanese Metal band, got introduced to them via a BlazBlue combo video by Tetsu, where they were playing one of their singles "OnSlaught") another band popped up and I absolutely LOVE this song. It's called Enrai Tooku Ni Aru Akarai by HIGH AND MIGHTY COLOR [link] Be sure to check out the song and lemme know what you think.

[Personal Life>

Honestly, time is really clicking downwards to the zero hour, might not know what that is but I'm going to have to start making some huge as decisions and stop delaying the inevitable and move forward within my life. It's always a point in time where we know something is destined to be but, we try to push it off and hope that it will go away. Well, sometimes those things don't go away and begin to only exponentially increased if left alone; they fester and grow into even bigger problems. It's time for me to make my stand and personally deal with these things starting off from where they may. I will begin once more at ground zero and build my way up but, I know it will be worth it.

A hardened road lies ahead of me, one that takes people their whole lives to fix and sometimes things don't out the way they want. But I'm tired of letting fate and other people decide where my chips fall. It's time for me to take matters within my own hands and enhance the good and bring about my own Ragnarok and destroy those that have ruled over my lives for too long. It's time for me to destroy the lives of those that surpress me, and it's time for me to allow those people to wallow in their misery and to move on and find new people who treats me how I want to be treated. This is all apart of it.

I guess one thing that truly gotten to me was the fact of wanting to be liked, wanting to be loved, wanting to be ACCEPTED for who I am most of all. I find that my true personality is one that is confused, twisted and literally someone who is anti-social, but I'm well-meaning and truly try. However, everyone isn't as open, nor as non-biased when it comes to things. People want to hear what they want to hear and even if they say you can tell them anything, non of them but small handful really mean what they say. So, it's time fo rme to start looking out for myself. Or as the motto of one school in Ikki-tousen manga said, "Enhance yourself, desecrate others".

Well, the day of wreckening will soon be at hand where I will start everything from scratch and then realize, through that, what my true worth isand regain my bounderies and begin my new life. But until that time, everything else is within the margin of being prepared, and of getting the mental state necessary for me to accomplish all those things that I want. The world can be mine, I just have to reach out and take it.

[Gaming Life]

Gaming life is actually pretty good at the moment, I feel like I'm doing better and better with games. I picked up Street Fighter IV again for my birthday and my Cammy is getting as good as it was, but I bring more tools with me this time (With an Arcade Stick, I can TK Canon Strike very easily) but I'm having trouble doing it on the left side. Another thing that's getting me is the fact that I don't have my own TV (I have to use the TV that my mom and her boyfriend fucking boss-hog whenever they want, because of this, I'm going to end up buying another TV or getting an AV adapter so my computer monitor can be used as a TV).

With the Tekken 6 ladder, I was climbing up it, but now I have to forfiet two easy matches cause the bitch doesn't want to give up the TV. Because of that, I'm going to drop out of Playoff range and will have to fight and fight and fight to make sure I'm secured within teh top 19. Because of the loss, I'm all ready fell from 13th to 20th, and I have to be within the top 19 at the end of the ladder season (November 29th?) and you can only challenge someone once every 7 days, which means that I won't be able to fight these people again and I might very well .. Just ugh, I wish I knew my spot was safe right now, but it's early and Ic an climb back up. but ti' easier when I have nothing but noobs to fight so I can be guarantee'd at least a T-Shirt for my efforts but oh well. You live and you learn and I will have to find out more things for my Lili to use. I just wish that her combos that started up didn't rely on slow ass low moves or sub-par speed high moves. People like Law are extremely quick while people like King have good power. Or Alisa or Eddy who have moves that are fairly hard to punish because of the awkwardness of them. I wonder why I always end up picking low-tier people by accident that have very few options availiable to them, I wonder why it's a curse I have. Oh well.

Another thing, I'm trying to trade in a lot of games because Call of Duty: Modern Warfare 2 is coming out. I'm going to have to pay that off but I really don't know how the hell I'm going to do that shit. Ugh, I can switch over reserves from NCAA 10 and Madden NFL 10 to put $10 down, but then I will have a balance of like, $50 left. I'm trading in about 15 games, but all of them are worth maybe no more than $2 each, so I will still have a balance left of like $20. Hopefully, HOPEFULLY I get that %20 trade in since I'm putting it towards Call of Duty and that will lead me with enough to pay it off.. I'm hoping, I'm really hoping, if not, Oh well.

As far as tournaments, I'm an extra for a Tekken 6 Tournament as well as a BlazBlue Tournament at 2Solid.com. Good first prizes, I'm just pissed off I didn't sign up for them beforehand, just couldn't fucking get in in time, I have to start paying more attention to these things. Another thing is that I came in 2nd at my Gamestop's Tekken 6 Tournament, Ugh. I should've beat the guy, but Bruce is so fucking difficult fo rme, I really need to try and step up my game a lot more.

[Drawing]

As far as drawing, My inking is getting better and I will continue and continue to do it. But I will have to realize that it won't be perfect and it will take some time for me to get good, but I will perservere. One thing I really want but can't afford is a tablet, that is one of the prime things I would love to be able to do. So what I'm going to do is start drawing more and more "hentai". Since people love that thing, and then I will use the money from that and buy me a tablet. So, I'm going to start putting up very nasty pictures, cause even the sub-par quality hentai get at least a few comissions, so it's a stupid thing, but hey, I need the money and there's nothing else that people will go far. You can go the cute route or badass drawing route, but I don't like cute and right now my skills are no where near some of the other artists, and since I'm male it's going to be a lot harder. LOL.

But I'm going to be doing a lot of stuff so look out for that. If you can donate money for CoD MWF2, that'd be good, or even for the tablet. I'd love you. LOL. Well, anyways, Ciao people, thanks for reading.